recently during these past few weeks..... i have been really feeling kind of moddy but i just do not knw how to explian that
maybe my family have been facaing some kind of problems which really bothers me a lot a lot a lot
when i see my mother crying, it really hurts me a lot a lot a lot and i fking hate that feeling
so whenever i go to school i really do wish to open my mouth as i really got no mood anymore and furthermore, i am also facing some problems in school tooo
i fking hate that seriously
i really really hope everything will go back to normal and i want to see my dearest mummy smile back cos she means a lot to me than my life
to me, shes my pillar of support, my everything
i love her a lot and i see her crying and yet i cannot do anything about it
i really am at a losss
i really hope i can do well for my exams and this would be the very little thing that would make her smile back and i am sure of that
sometimes i wonder to myself, issit my problem or their problem
why do everything seemed to direct towards me
WHY WHY WHY ?????
i knw there will be no answer to all the questions but i just want them to knw one thing
i have never change at all and i am happy the way i am and i am really really fortunate and hapy to knw a bunch of fun-loving friends which i really appreciate them a lot
but the changes really make my heart heartbroken a thousands times
i believe.......... and i hope...........
EVERYBODY CAN HATE ME BUT I MUST LOVE MYSELF
it is not that i am self -centered but i seriously agree with this sentence
i cannot change the way and the mindset that u have on me due to some incidents but seriously speaking i really will not put it to heart and i will treat everyday like a new brand day yeah
i am not sure about u but one thing for sure i have always treated you as my friend and that fact will never change
i am always telling myself
wei beng what is fucking wrong with u ????
but i just cannot find the answer
yes i admit, sometimes i can be very temperamental, but who don't ??????
i admit i have my weaknesses but who don't ????
i may be a little blunt with my words but sometimes your words can be even more blunt than me.........
the point that i am writing so much is not to complain neither to tell anyone abt anything
i just want to voice out everything
i am hardworking ...... but whats the fucking big deal abt that
if u work as hard as me,....... u will get the same rewards as what i have enjoyed
i have always been like that
since i can accept you for who you are, then u should accept me for who i am
thats it =)
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